Sunday, February 28, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
I think a lot of people do not like this word, authority. A simple notion that suggests there is an entity more powerful than yourself that controls what you can or cannot do somehow angers people. It makes us argue we no longer have the right to free will or choice, and is also blamed at times for hindering creativity as well.
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday, February 07, 2010
It's amazing. No, it's not amazing, it's terrible. One moment a man can be a certain way but switch in an instant when there's a new entity to include in the equation.
Moods can swing, attitudes switched almost instantly. You think you've gotten over something, but you haven't. A struggle wages within, well not really. It's more like a hundred years war that keeps going and going. It is not continuous, but the battles that accumulate, which come and go make the war. There is peace one moment, but there are forces that just seek for battle just over the horizon that you have yet to see.
A resolution is not yet clear because there is something you have to let go that you haven't; because you don't want to let it go, what could have been. The core of the matter remains and is always an instigator to the conflict within. The flames of anger burn higher when you feel others have moved on, frustration mounts further because you are still stuck where you are.
Of course, in this story, when I say 'you', I really mean me.
I'm sorry. I'm very far from a place where I can face you, at least for the moment. I cannot face you because I don't know how I feel about you, friend or foe? I don't really want to say anymore, but I have a pretty good feeling you should know who you are if you're reading. Again, I apologise.
I just hope I can resolve what I'm facing, so that I can at least see you the way I did when I first met you, as a friend.
Thursday, February 04, 2010
Admittedly the thing I'm most thankful for this week is this:
Tuesday, February 02, 2010
Somehow, I just feel that I have this thing coming on where my tongue's starting to get loose lately, which of course is a totally bad thing. I'm not even sure whether I've made of poor choice of words over the past few days. I guess it can happen when you overdo trying to be a bit more outspoken.
I just want to say sorry if I've offended anyone this week. I don't know, I just feel I need to say that somehow. Something just doesn't feel right if I don't.